i think, on one fine day, sometime after i went for attachment, the world turned upside down. i realise that things are not the same anymore. things changed. i expected the same ol thing, the familiar feeling of that certain comfort, a certain way. i never thought it would be but alas, its gone. i now hesitate to even seek for it cuz i know it's not what i want. it's not the same. i searched high and low, but the answers are just right in front of me. i have seen the light. i now see the true colors.

things changed overnight. i'm now a believer. and you wonder why, you wonder what. the sense of closeness all disappeared in an instant. i wonder why i even bothered in the first place. is it only me who stayed the same?

it looks the same, but it's just not home anymore. i entered some strange land. it's probably time for me to get my ass outta here and find my place somewhere else.

don't worry, i wont bother looking for you anymore.

haaaa... heeeee... huuuuu.... hooooo.... :)

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there is one thing in common in my entries for these past 7 weeks. and its the neverending complains of my tempo career. and today it's not much different. i think i've reached my highest level of stress. i'm weak at handling that.i have been promised that 15th Feb shall be the date that i will stop creating new databases and programming in it as i have to start testing and debugging until i end my attachment. and that, as told to me, would probably take a month. so as scheduled, i cleaned up my old databases just before lunch and called my super, hoping that he would give me a half day since the requested databases are not up on global server yet. he was rather surprised to know i was free, because he had given me a new database to do on monday. and surprisingly yes, i finished!but alas, he told me to relax for a bit, until he finds me something else to do. i went to lunch with sha a miserable soul.

and so yesterday, the 16th feb, at the end of the day i am rushing through the new database because the old ones are up on global. and i spent my last few mins trying to find her id file and waiting, and trying her passwords and some message pops up which im not sure of. and the IT employees have gone off promptly at 530.

today, the 17th of feb, i came to work dead tired and bogged down with codes that dont seem to work on the global server and i have to redo. and it doesnt work either. i am at the point of system shutdown. my eyes are tired from staring at the screen too long and typing useless codes. and i hardly get up from this seat unless toilet breaks. and the toilet aint that scenic and fragrant smelling either.

i am bloated, cramped, stressed, tensed and PMS-ed. so anybody who gets near and tries to irritate, will get snapped at. believe me, i have much more things going inside my head than this. but now, i just need sleep. and a blardy good weekend.

what do you think of uds? click click!

oi. use real names can or not? or those nicknames that i know u by. u dont leave real nicks, how am i suppose to belanja you if i like your opinions about me ha??? not funny know! *grumble grumble*

todae is one of the rarest days that i am free. cuz usually i'm bogged down with stuff given by her and databases need to be up on local and then global and whatever more.
i finished about 95%(self-claimed) last fri cuz the rest just needs testing and modification. why bother changing codes 2x anyway. let's just leave it later, do it once and get it over and done with. todae, she's missing. she went for some CPR course for 3 days. all the best to the person who plays faint/dead. lets hope she bathes and brushes her teeth.

my super comes and tells me the good news(to me that is). and since i have nothing left to do, i told him i'm free. rather than i get commented that i'm slooow and lack initations. and here i am doing my work at my own pace. i've got 3 days to finish. disturbance and stress free... *grins*

pms. grrr. roar. i hate it. makes me angry and feel like screaming at every small thing that annoys me. but after a few days, all's well.
i'm super broke. and very depressed. i'm nt going to franz. *sobs*
might go for jason mraz, after pay day. that is if tix are still available, and i have some kachings to spare.
why my pay day so far awayyyyyyyy??????????!!!!!
i calculated how much i earned one fine boring day during late lunch with ah seng.
we only earn an estimated............... ok ok. less than $2 an hr. now now, who said mcDonald's employees are the lowest paid??!! huh???????????!!!!!!!!!! damn pathetic sial. ok i'm getting more depressed here.

peeve of the day : when a person swipes his/her card to gain access to an area, the least u can do is hold the door for him/her to enter first, then you. DONT enter before him/her and leave the door opening just for yourself and in addition, never give thanks whatsoever like as if that person is invisible. damn rude can or not!!!!! office people are meanies. just like you, you and you.

♥♥♥ to the other cherry girl.

i am not in the bestest of moods since last night.
some irritating things are bugging me since a few weeks earlier but i've decided to just be ignorant and let people be what they are. if they dont bother, i wont either. and todae, i'm back to my stressed database mood again. i'm left until 15th feb to finish up what i have. and start testing and debugging from 15th feb till the end of my temporary career.
and having people that dont understand or are just out to irritate are not helping.

you know me and you know how i am. if you're testing me, you deserve to be shot down.
i have a fucking limit to my tolerance.

muka bacin momentbye bye~..

because rebonding is so passe.

after coming back from a 4 day off, i am back in the office and am not really aware of myself. cuz, plainly, i'm just too tired. didnt sleep well at all last night cuz the bed bugs were at it again. they are immuned to insect repellant, it seems. and i just bought it last week and it's already finished. what is the other alternative, since they eat thru chemicals?? i want my sleep!!
*scratches leg*
arghhhh i really really really cant stand it anymore.

last fri had a half day unexpectedly. and went off to celebrate with ndee at ikea. i'm his personal shopper, i self declare. without me, he will make wrong purchases. hehehehe.. and i followed him home.
on sat i gave midah her long awaited sushi treat. we came at 5 and by 530 the waitress came and asked us whether we had any last orders, for they are closing at 6. town was really dead. all the mats and minahs came out to play. hardly any chinese were around. except probably us who people keep asking silently among themselves, "melayu ke cina?". eh kau sibok nape?
sun night was uber gerek night. there's a first time for everything. nyehehehehehhh...
monday... hmmm what did i do on monday.... oh. met sha at bishan and bitch bitch bitch. new stories but will be kept among ourselves. hohohoho.
tue.... met nad. she feels for some a spendin'.

some pics are at multiply. and some pics are not uploaded yet.