"When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way they show that they wish
They had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great
People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be
Cos people are all the same
(The same, the same)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah, yeah)
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, you)
So are you
So are you
People are all the same
(Oh, oh, oh)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah)
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, so are you)
So are you
So are you"

yeah sure bully me cuz im the youngest and usually have not much to say. u think i'm young i don't know much about anything that's happening in my surroundings. u think i cant tell right from wrong and lie from truth. young doesnt mean below 10 and cant think for myself. u cant threaten me with your cash(big deal not) even though im soon to be climbing up the ladder to get my own dough. if you've had a rough day, so did i. i'm not the place to vent frustrations on. and please get some manners. when people are eating or doing something, please do have the mind to not ask someone to do your bidding while u sit at the sofa like some big fucking boss.

well you know what?
you talk like you're some successful businessman and whatever you're doing is sooooooo right but truthfully, you're just talking crap that everyone's pretending to listen cuz they cant be bothered, cuz they know the truth about you. and dont come talking about cash with me when you yourself cant handle your own. why shud u care? u didnt pay for my education anyway. you never paid for much except for my hp bill! and you make it sound like my bill is a million bucks! and dat too you wanna rake up because i cant take the fucking laptop for you cuz im eating?? are you fucking nuts in the brain or just plain dumb? you are just dumber and dumber!
eh, tak heran lah okay. you make me sound like im so hard up on your money. well no thanks. when i've got my own dough, dont expect me to give some to you. if you ask, i'm gonna throw hell notes at you. not a single cent of my money will be given to you because you know why? you suck up to people who have cash and is ur atm. u membodek them! u 2 faced piece of shit. it irks me.
you are a true blue male chauvinistic pig right down to the very core of your bones.
you think you're perfect but you're not. you never were.

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lighter note:
pay's today!

as drawn by shittySiti and me

i wonder how i end up mixing with people who are totally mad(loony wise).
i took a break since i got too sleepy and my brain was automatically stoning. the codes, the chim explaination, got forcefully pushed to the back of my head cuz what i read in the online help looked like a bunch of jibberish. so we decided to draw crap.
while i drew that and shittySiti drew her so called hantu pepek wearing high hells(hahahaha), the innocent irritant came by for her daily checks and saw what else but that magnificent drawing.
she quotes "thats cute.."
and btw, the circle thingy on the supposedly guy, is a navel. it's not a pepek. and how can a pepek look like shittySiti's drawing?? like come on, it looks like one of Ronald McDonald's friends! but nice try.

my LO called me after she read my fantastic composition regarding my "wanderfool" time working here. and she might be paying a visit on week 7 and is gonna pretend she doesnt know the story abt the innocent irritant and the considerate IT guy.
which leads me to continuing my story after the drawing.
after getting caught by the innocent irritant, i told her the considerate IT guy already came and taught me things. and he still wants me to play around with the codes and understand em. but noooooooo, the innocent irritant called him up again, telling him to tell me directly what to do because as she claims, we got no time for this playing around crap. and she passed the fone to me and i felt a lil paiseh. because considerate IT guy would probably be pissed by then, bombarded with phone calls from me. at the end of the phone call, he said "if you encounter problems again, you can call me straight, no need to go through huiling. why, you scared of me ah?"
totalli diaoz can?
and i replied "noooo. it's not that. it's [innocent irritant name here] who called you because she was checking up on me."
stupid stupid stupid. and that made me OT for about, almost half an hr more. i'm not paid for OT u asses.

i've always wanted someone to sit down with me and talk about... surprisingly, stories about religion. not the do's and dont's but rather, what went on millions of years ago. like who can talk to animals, who can fly, who can control the wind, who can command invisible jins and such. and sidetrack a little to the ghost stories part.

i've found my tutor. hehe.

after numerous tries and numerous names,

You Are In a Crunch Ice Cream

The perfect combo: a completely nuts person who likes to be touched

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

i found a flavour that has a nice name. now i crave ben n jer's. someone bring me now!!

good noon.

the weekends ended just like that. in a snap of the fingers. as fast as that. so sad...

saturday afternoon was spent downstairs trying to enjoy a bit of mr sun since he peeked out to play after mr rain went away. i got like 1 hr+'s worth until mr cloudy decided to kidnap mr sun. bad mr cloudy. at night, i went out, got lost in bukit panjang, and went back home. super not fun okay. but i forgave. haha..
sunday was 'Menggila Bersama Nad' day! said a quick hi to juls at espl and whined about our attachments for about 10 mins, hugged and left. great seeing you sweets! next time say hi if u and my sis happen to meet again! just in case both of you are stil shy, "juls meet ninie, ninie meet juls". ok done. and then there's the camwhoring in the empty citybuzz, which i almost forgot to take my camera. phew~ luckily i checked. and then there's the open mocking and joget-ing at this fashion hoho. i love to play with fake fur. dont buy real fur! love animals! they have feelings too! and hans national library is the best. especially the mirror. loveeeeee~
Menggila Bersama Nad is always menggelek menggerek. shiok!

and today, work. work sucks work sucks work sucks. 4 more days to weekend. 12 more days to payday. yahoooo!!

i've added 2 vintage tees webbies under my links. the 80stees are sooooo cute! i love most of em. like My Little Pony, MTV, junk food etc. and from the noisebot t-shirts bags totes, my favs are..

E=MC HAMMER
Pale Is The New Tan
This Shirt Is Bananas
You Say Potato I Say Fuck You
You Say Tomato I Say Fuck You
Procrastinators of the world unite! ... tomorrow
Save A Cow Eat A Vegan
You're Gay! Not That There's Anything Wrong With That..
Talk Nerdy To Me
Do I Make You Corny?
Someone In New York Loves Me
Sorry! I Didn't Recognize You Without The Bag

.. i love almost everything!!!!!

for Miss Pucca 06'

*kanchong mode*
2 more mins.
*huff puff huff puff*
WEEKENDS HERE I COME!!!!!!!!

me is sick with the bloody flu and a drastic cough. yestdae's stay in the office before lunch was killing me. a headache and the aircon above me made it not so easy to breathe. during lunch i was contemplating whether to take a half day since i really couldn't take it. after lunch, i talked to my super and went home. the journey home wasn't nice either. i was getting more feverish and my head was throbbing and my cough was getting more worse. by the time i reached home, my body ached all over, felt as if my brain is cooking thanks to the body heat and i was shivering. lied down and tried to go to sleep but cant. felt very uneasy. requested my mom for a cold wet towel to put on my forehead and it felt better. placed it on my tummy and it felt as if i put thousands of ice on me.

went to the doc by taxi and it was closed. the whole row there's like 5 clinics and all of em closed. opened by 630 or 7. and it was only 530. my mum and me wasted time at the prime supermarket and i walked around like a bloody zombie.

i requested an mc for 2 days. just in case today i'm still half past dead. but yeah im feeling better, thanks to doc's meds. i love doc's meds the best! pharmacy medicine just doesnt cut it.

and might i add, i love how the drowsiness kicks in. ahhhhh blissssss.....

i.am.very.very.very.stressed.
i demand a pay a programmer gets for the heavy workload im doing.
this measly pay does not satisfy what i'm going through.

i.feel.like.fainting.OR
hide under my desk and cry until the next 8 weeks are up.

ifah.
you have got to contact me a.s.a.p when you read this.

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Not strip for free anymore. Get your resolution here

i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate work right now.

they're rushing me do the programming because like i said before, they've got a loooooooong list for me to do. i have to do programming for 4 freekin departments hokay. FOUR FUCKING DEPARTMENTS! and i'm doing it alone. i hafnt finished my current work and they're oredi giving me new ones and explaining them to me. and i am quite stressed at the moment.
i even dreamt of programming for the past 2 nights. and i would wake up several times in the night and keep thinking of all those bloody codes. i think i even thought of a code for going to sleep!
OMG.
i need therapy.

but yayness the weekends are here. i have been waiting for it the whole darn week. and last night, i got the flu. and today i woke up feverish. but i'm going out in a short while. i dont wanna waste my weekend home.

it's currently lunch time.
where am i?
isnt it obvious enough?
i'm at the office, accompanied by a sucky keyboard + mouse. fuck these things. why am i not having lunch? because lunch buddy cabot work today and somebody else overslept. cleverrrr..........
ohhhh sooooo greaaattttt.....
i refuse to have lunch alone cuz i will feel sad and lonely. and besides that, i'm anti-social. hurhur. so i decide to vent frustrations here rather than hurl it at someone who mms-ed me his paycheck and got me thinking, where's mine? or is it included in the coming pay at the end of the month?

fuck this place im working at. they're rushing me to do this project. they think i expert at lotus notes isit!!! one week enough to know everything isitttt!!!!! fuck you all ah.
"can speed up the process? cuz we got a long list for you.."
hello? taking advantage of an IT student. i'm not even expert for goodness sake and this IT shit i'm doing is not even taught in school. WTF.WTF.WTF?? and for all these, i'm still underpaid.
fuck you all and fuck today.
i still have 5 more hours to kill.

diam ah.

for the fashionista.

2005?

naaahhhhh.....
bad year.

2006?

hopefully better.